Leaving Nerves Behind and Setting Goals

Hey everyone,

Since moving to London by myself 5 months ago (wow that time has gone quick!!) I have had to grow up a lot. I have always been an independent person and people always said I was mature beyond my years. I have really had to push this and mature even more since not having my mum to rely on 24/7. Recently I've been setting myself goals and leaving my nerves attached to certain things behind. A major goal for this year is learning to drive. For as long as I can remember I have always said "I'm not going to drive when I'm older". I can remember being around 8 or 9 and being absolutely terrified of driving, of crashing and of all the responsibility that comes with driving, especially when other people will be in the car. Since turning 17 almost so many people have been pressuring me to start driving. I have been terrified to start but as I'm now approaching my 19th birthday I think I finally need to put the nerves behind me and bite the bullet. The longer I leave it the more nervous I think I'll become so in the next few months I'm going to do it. I will learn to drive!! 

If you want to achieve something but are nervous join me and take a leap!

Meg xx 

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Self Doubt

Hey everyone, 

As you may now from my previous post 'Update' I haven’t really been in the right mindset to write blog posts. I set a standard for myself and this means that if I feel like a post I write isn’t up to this standard I won’t post it. 

I went out to dinner with a friend the other night and we had a heart to heart and it made me feel ready to write something and it got me thinking. I am the type of person who takes every little comment to heart. I still think about comments someone may have said to me years ago. A few months back a comment was said about me involving something I am really passionate about and it made me question my passion. I won’t say exactly what it was but it has made me doubt myself so much. I am an incredibly insecure person and unfortunately this means I let things eat away at me and don’t just brush them off. This comment has made me doubt myself so much even to the point where I haven’t written blog posts or filmed certain youtube videos because I feel so insecure. 

Having this blog has made me feel so much more confident in myself. If you asked me a year ago if I would write a blog or make youtube videos and post them for everyone including people who know me to see I would have laughed and told you it would never happen. I want to continue with it to prove people who give me negative comments wrong and because I enjoy it and I shouldn't let other peoples opinions effect that. 

As much as  I wish I wasn't someone who doubted myself so much I am and for now I'm not sure how to change that but I am going to try my best not to let it effect me writing posts anymore. I'm sorry I've been so quiet but thank you for sticking with me. 

Meg xx 

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