This is me.

Hey everyone, 

This post is a little different. DISCLAIMER... this is in NO way for 'attention' I will explain my reasons for doing this throughout the post. I have been trapped inside myself for almost 19 years now and I finally just want to come out (no pun intended) and say it. I'm Bisexual. 

I am doing this as a blog post because I am tired of hiding away. I want to be able to be myself and not worry about who is looking or what people will think of me. I am tired of speculation about my sexuality. I was bullied for years by people saying "you obviously like girls" or "you've never had a boyfriend, you must be a lesbian" etc etc and it really got to me. I always knew I liked girls but I was battling with my own mind and people saying these comments wasn't helping me on the journey to find myself. For the last few years as I've gotten older and I've been thinking more more the battle within myself continued. I tried telling myself that it was just like a "girl crush" that everyone has and deny who I was. I was pushing these feelings away and trying to act like they didn't exist. Recently I've finally been able to fully accept myself for who I am and I want to share myself with everyone else and not hide anymore. This is the real me. Yes I also like girls but what difference does that make? Who I find attractive should have no effect on anyone else. I hate that I've hidden away for so long due to the fear of how I would be treated. Now that I have finally given myself time to be comfortable within myself it is time to put this out there. The reason I am doing this so publicly is because I have a fear. A fear that if I keep this to myself much longer that I will revert back to my old ways and disappear back inside myself denying all my feelings again and thats the last thing I want to happen. I finally want to be able to be happy and open so this is it. Now you all know. 

Speaking from my own experience feeling trapped inside your own mind is an absolutely horrible feeling and my anxiety has been through the roof recently. I want you to know that if you are reading this and you are feeling similar things, whether it be in regards to sexuality or something else, I am here and you can always talk to me if you need a friendly chat or some support. I am not a professional whatsoever I just want to help people feel less alone.

My sexuality does not define me as a person but it is a part of me that I don't want to keep locked away anymore more. 

Meg xx

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Met Gala Fashion Hits & Misses

Hey everyone, 

Last Night the annual Met Gala took place in New York and pictures of everyones outfits have been filling my instagram feed all day so I thought I would go through my favourite styles from last night and some I wasn't loving so much! 

First are the Jenner sisters! Kylie was wearing a gorgeous dazzling gown by Balmain and Kendall was wearing a cut out detail Versace gown. When I first saw it I wasn't too sure on my opinion of Kendall's dress but there is no denying she looks amazing in it! 

Staying in the same family Kim and Kayne were named best dressed couple on the night, Kim in Balmain and Kayne in Fear of God. I personally think Zayn Malik and Gigi Hadid could give them a run for their best dressed couple title. Making their red carpet debut they both looked amazing keeping with the Manux X Machina: Fashion in an Age of Technology theme. Zayn wore Armour sleeves as he escorted Gigi in a Metallic Bodice with a sheer overlay, both designed by Tommy Hilfiger. Which couple do you think deserved best dressed? 

Someone who's style choices I usually adore is Beyonce but last night her outfit wasn't my cup of tea at all. She wore a nude latex gown by Givenchy.  I must say I'm definitely a bigger fan of her Givenchy gown from last years gala. Beyonce's sister, Solange Knowles, also missed the mark for me. She wore a Yellow ensemble designed by David LaPort and I am not a fan. To me it looks like big bird from sesame street... what do you think?? 

For me Blake Lively was one of the best dressed of the night! She stunned on the red carpet wearing a pink Burberry Gown with Floral detailing. This dress wasn't too much but it was simply gorgeous... Loved!!! 

Two more definite fashion hits for me were Rita Ora wearing an amazing cut out detail, silver, feather gown by Vera Wang, and Nina Dobrev wearing a gorgeous gold number by Merchesa. 

My Final two fashion misses of the night were made by Madonna and Selena Gomez. Madonna wore a sheer, black lace number by Givenchy and I personally don't like it at all I think it was too much (or should I say too little!) I am usually a huge fan of Selena's Red Carpet outfits but I'm not sure what she was thinking last night with this rare fashion fail. She wore a Polka dot Louis Vuitton gown with a leather Bralette on top paired with black lace up boots. One of my least favourite of the night from Selena. 

Who do you think stunned on the red carpet and who were you not loving so much?

Meg xx